'09 was a great year for me I honestly feel like i've grown more and learned more i'm more wiser and feel a lot closer to God.I got to travel to Puerto Rico with my best friend and had a blast!,summer was really great for me as I worked in theather and found more love for acting.I got to be part of few big productions and met a lot of cool stars.Of course had my down moments with friends and growing apart from certain ones, its sad letting go of certain people who you truly loved and cared about who did you wrong.I’m trying to leave those people back in ‘09 and move forward with the postive people around me.Also losing the amazing Michael Jackson who is such a HUGE inspiration to me and the world for that matter may he r.i.p always! :( .I hope that God continues to bless me in every way as I continue on this journey of mine i’m so thankful for all the things he has done for me so far.I look forward to this New Year! & and looking forward to doing a lot of BIG things!…..HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!! God Bless Always -Mandii xoxo
If you’re alone,I’ll be your shadow.If you want to cry,I’ll be your shoulder.If you want a hug,I’ll be your pillow.If you need to be happy,I’ll be your smile.But anytime you need a friend,I’ll just be me.
Stop caring for people who don’t give a rat’s ass about me.
It sounds selfish, so go ahead and call me selfish. But does it really make me selfish for finally understanding that I deserve better? I’ve finally come to terms with myself, and I receive so much less than what I’m capable of receiving. I’m stronger than what I’ve allowed myself to become. Certain people make the choice to tread all over me, but because I care for them, I allow it and forgive them later on. Well, I’ve been losing myself, and getting hurt in the end. I’m done being treated like a last resort by someone who I consider my first. This is bullshit. I’ve tried waiting for a change, but that’s just not happening. Looks like I’m going to have to be the one to change. I hope you enjoyed the person I was, because she’s gone now. I’m improved, and trust me, I’ll bite your damn legs off if you even try to walk all over me.
Never mind the new year, I’m starting it right now.
It seems I had a dream last night that I was five years old.
I was taken back to my home town before my house was sold.
As I lay there lost within a dream, sleeping in my bed,
Memories of younger days circled in my head.
I walked along a narrow trail not knowing of its end.
Then suddenly between the trees stood my life long friend.
Still as I was dreaming I watched from day to day.
I never left my best friend’s side or lost a moments play.
I watched as we grew older; how quickly time had passed.
All those years behind us had come and gone so fast.
Then in my dream I saw her there, standing in the crowd.
I watched and faked a smile while my world turned upside-down.
I realized then this was no dream and I couldn’t help but think,
of all those years that passed us by when all I did was blink.
There’s plenty of time to mature physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. What’s everybody rushing for? I see 13 year old girls with faces caked with make-up, bodies half-exposed, and the mentalities of someone twice their age. Believe me, once you truly experience what it means to be an “adult”, you’ll begin wishing you were youngin’ again. The grass is always greener on the other side. So just fuck the other side. Enjoy what you’ve been blessed with because there’s plenty of time to get to the other side; no one’s rushing you.